GEEEEEZ...

Really see true colors of people when they are in desperate situations. Even though everything is doing good and all I really feel damn sian now. So much things I feel like saying yet I cant say it out. That feeling just sucks. Hais suck thumb and complain on blog lor... Last year this period also like that... So rocky... Worse still alvin gg ntu alr... Don't know how is the whole thing gonna be like. One word: SIAN. Wonder where my fighting spirit run to. Really just feel like escaping from all these shits. Hate it. Hate stress so much. Tiny bit also don't like. I think things just sucks in the end of year. Not even looking forward to my 21st now. To think about it, I'm dreading everything. Feel like drinking. Feel like crying. Feel like swimming. Feel like tanning. Hais will anyone understand? Everything seems so nice and well, but infact its not the case you know? I keep telling people good night and that I'm gg to sleep but I'm NOT!!! I don't feel like sleeping at all. When can someone slow down and observe me and tell me I'm not okay?