WE BANGED MAZDA SIX

Yes, I got into a car accident. It's a small one, banged the front car. Alvin was driving. Why so? Alvin and I was fighting. Or should I say, I keep humiliating him and saying him non stop (I really hate myself for that, really do). He turn back to look (give a face) at the passengers (YB, LS, Ben) then BANGGGG!!!


Still don't know how much yet, settling privately. Hais I really feel like shit nw, as you know I can't take any pressure. Alvin settling the bills himself. I really don't know what gotten in to me that got me so mad over such a petty thing. This anger issue really need some serious attention. Friends who are reading, now you know I'm abit problematic, please help to control me. Church or whatever please bring it on. 


Alvin ah alvin he really too damn nice alr.. Before I went to cool down, I was so freaking pissed at him, cos he dont let me wind down the window to "disturb" the auntie so I got angry. Cos at that moment I really damn pekchek w the aunty who kept looking over and saying us. So I wanna wind down the passenger window to let everyone boo at her. Then alvin stopped me, so I unhappy lor:( Then I keep saying hurtful things about him already. Hais whole car so awkward:x 


Okay mainpoint, I went to find jw cos he's the only one I can think of at that moment. Can't think of anyone who knows accidents more than he do. Somemore he's someone who knows about me and alvin's situation. So went to him then he say "ACCIDENT ONLY MAAAA, CAUSE OF THAT ANGRY W HIM WORTH ANOT?". He keep repeating and saying I damn easy angry all and it finally hit me. I realized I was the one being unreasonable, being so anal about things. I feel so bad. So bad that I want to see him so bad. BUT EGOOOOO HOW? I dropped it. Yes, I dropped my ego and went to find alvin. Cos I know I really love him and cannot live without him. 


He was w yb, ls and san at macs. So I asked him to find me at st.81. I started asking how is he when I saw him, then he still wearing this stern face. I think to him it's gonna be break up. Cause when I left him, I was damn pissed. He thought I came back to say break up. But who knows, I apologized. haha I think he really quite stunned. Then he told me if I were to break up w him, he will, cause he say my character too bad alr:((( This really reminds me of giving and taking in r/s. 


Idk why I get into so much details also la but anw we are both okay already... Help me pray that the person will be nice to claim a little too:((( Hais this is really a lesson learnt for both of us. We gonna get through this together. We will.... I think I'm loving him so much more everytime. 


Now we have a common goal in life: to let me learn to manage my anger. It's really getting out of control. 


And not forgetting to <3 the people who were there with me and alvin when we were quarreling. I need to thank those who were there to talk to alvin when I left him to cool myself down. 


ABRUPT ENDING, GOOD NIGHT!