I think I found myself

I've school in a few hours time and yea, tonight I can't get myself to bed again. I hate nights like that. You know people always say Hollywood is a gimmick, nothing is real there. But you now what, I found myself another song that I can totally relate to. But maybe this time it's a little different. This song is my waking up song. Maybe it's calling me to clean up those tears at night. I have to find myself back. Tiny errors should not be barriers holding me back. I realized I've been magnifying my problems. I've been getting myself to stress over a possible C grade in my module. I've been worrying about how people will think if things changed. I've been scrapping my own hurt wound at these nights -telling myself how badly I'm hurt when it's time carry on. My family problem, I've been crying on it when my parents already tell me it will be fine. When I list it all out, I feel so pathetic, shouldn't I already get over all these days back? It's been bout a week already I suppose. Time to slap myself to reality.